Last night, I made some cookies and watched a movie virtually with friends. We filled our spaces with love, light and laughter. Around 5am, I woke up from my sleep and stuck my head outside and breathed.
This morning, I took my time, lit some candles and thought about all of the parts of my self that I no longer need. Then, I thought of all that I want to draw towards myself.
This solstice is especially fun because we also have a once-in-200-years celestial event : the conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn.
The next 200 years will be ruled by air and will focus on ideologies, decentralization and spirituality. It's times like these that I wish I were immortal. I want to see that entire 200 year period and I want to see how it's different from other eras. History and hope will have to be enough.
Every winter solstice, I like to meditate on what to leave behind and what to bring into the coming year. This year has seen a lot of changes and I am feeling hopeful for the future, even though the present is so bleak. With this new shift in energy from earth to air, I'd like to focus on that shift and how I can mirror that shift in my own life.
I want to leave behind the focus on making money and the whole idea of becoming some great sensation. I know that I'm talented and that I make great things with great people, regardless of who knows about it. If I make money from my pursuits, that's wonderful, but I'm not going to kill myself trying to fight against the odds to "make it big". I am not interested in making money for money's sake. If I'm not passionate about my work, I shouldn't do it. It hurts too much and I'm tired. I'd rather be poor and free than miserable and financially secure, though I hope not to be too poor. I hope that over the next few years, we will begin to address the financial inequalities in the world so that no one has to fear poverty.
I want to bring more spirituality back into my life. I've hidden that part of myself too much. Yes, I identify as a witch. I have since I was a preteen and I don't foresee that changing any time soon. Yes, I have been bullied for this. Yes, I have been an outcast for this. Yes, I have felt very alone because of this. But times are changing, and it's become trendy to be a witch now and there is safety in numbers.
I want to bring more happiness to those around me, and I hope to expand my circle of influence. I have been doing that through my work with Gay & Grey Montreal. I'm sure I will post about them in future posts, but for now I'll just say that I'm very excited about my work with them. I don't make much, but it fills me up and gives me a sense of purpose.
How are you celebrating this time of year? What do you want to leave behind? What do you want to draw into your life?